M.I.A.

It's been a while since I put my thoughts onto this blog...the reason is mostly that it's been a been a bit of a challenging time and I'm never sure how much to say and how personal a public blog should become. I think, however, that I am choosing to share a fairly personal story and it's one that will inevitably involve a struggle (or 20! ha). I think it would be a dishonest blog if I didn't talk about the journey in it's entirety. I know that many many people struggle to try to get their health under control - weight loss books are the highest selling topic on the market in North America. I personally plan to conquer this lifelong challenge and I want to share enough of my experience that others can feel encouraged that getting through a battle is possible, even if it doesn't seem so.
Since I got back from Mexico, I am finding my motivation pretty hard to access. I did break up with sugar, but we were making up before I knew it and the last week has been a bit crazy in this department. I want to eat sugar or carbs for every meal, I'm not sleeping enough, and I'm not doing any exercise outside of Innovative. I will say that on the positive side, my IF workouts are still going great - the team is awesome and I'm getting stronger and more confident every week. I am going to work on finding this same motivation and attitude in the other areas of health and fitness. Because my one good area at the moment seems to be Innovative, I'm going to increase my time with the team there as I work on making some solid changes to the rest of my life.
I think that everyone has such an individual journey when it comes to health and more people struggle than admit it. For me personally, the emotional, mental, and addictive side of things is where 90% of the battle comes in...I have a really hard time finding self discipline in this area. I am ok with this really - I think there's nothing wrong with the parts of life that are hard - I usually learn a lot :)  This particular struggle, however, has been a long (verrrryyy long) and exceptionally challenging one....I am planning on coming through it quite the new and shiny ultra intelligent gal!