Perhaps a wee breakdown is underway

A lot of good has happened since I began this project....
I have lost 15 lbs
I have lost more than a few inches
I'm feeling stronger & more clear headed
My energy levels are up & I'm sleeping better
I am essentially off of my asthma inhaler
I have worked through a lot of discomfort/fear around working out with a trainer or in front of people
I have weighed myself occasionally rather than being obsessive
A large number of people have told me that they are motivated by this blog and are getting themselves in gear as well - woohoo!!

Despite these "wins" I'm feeling like I'm breaking down a bit...
Progress has been a lot slower that I anticipated (mostly due to lack of commitment to good nutrition, limited cardio outside of the gym, and battling a body that has been living in insulin-spike land for many years which encourages the production of fat), I have had all kinds of weird health things pop up (like giant feet and hair falling out....still not sure why), and for some reason this week I am really impatient with it all. I want to be done now....time for wearing jeans without feeling like I'm suffocating, thinking about going to Mexico without immediately being petrified of my bathing suit, and meeting someone new without my first though being that they are judging me about one of the many things I'm self conscious about. I think this is why people give up so often...it's really hard and saying "forget it" or "I'll start this up again tomorrow (or any time other than now)" can be really appealing. I'm not going to do that (FYI) but here is my yesterdays breakdown.....
I was super tired at Innovative, which has been the case for a few weeks although I'm not sure why. My foot randomly un-swelled and since then I've been feeling kind of crapparoo. Anyway, I pushed myself through the workout (including the damned stairmaster....3 times!) and afterward sat in the change-room for a while summoning the energy to get dressed. Eventually I ventured my way to putting some pants on and no lie, I gave up halfway and sat there and cried....a lot. I'm so grateful no one came in during my pants half on breakdown!
Then I went home and ate enough pasta for 3 people.
Not sure what to do other than start fresh today and keep on keeping on.....